Paradise is Sharing...


Cecilia, you're breaking my heart

You're shaking my confidence daily
Oh, Cecilia, I'm down on my knees
I'm begging you please to come home

Oh, Cecilia, I'm down on my knees
I'm begging you please to come home
Come on home 

Meet my Gremlin, Cecilia.  

Cecilia is my ego.  She is that part of me that is self-damning, judging, critical, and fearful.  She tends to be negative, and when really overwhelmed, she stops in her tracks all together.  Cecilia  thinks I am supposed to be more perfect than everyone else. Cecilia thinks that I am supposed to have all the answers, be diligent with my finances, and make way more money. Cecilia also thinks that I should be much more educated, well spoken, and polished like a brand new penny. As a result, I constantly fear that I am letting everyone down. I fear I am a disappointment to my family, to my friends, and to MyHoney, and yes, I sometimes feel like I failed Destiny, and I am racked with guilt that I do not give enough care to Lexi.  Cecilia is a compulsive liar who tries to trick my Inner Wisdom into believing I am not good enough.

Cecilia can come across as a loving and nurturing creature, but it's a rouse.  She is the one who convinces me that comfort can be found at the bottom of a Ben & Jerry's container, only to admonish me once the last spoonful hits my lips.

I am working on taming Cecilia and putting her in her place....

Here are some books I highly recommend to identify your Gremlin, and tame it once and for all:

Taming Your Gremlin, Rick Carson

Master Class in Gremlin Taming, Rick Carson

Paradise is Here, Paradise is Now .... Paradise is putting Cecilia in her place....